New year eve.. NEW resolution!

When I start thinking about future, it's really make me delight. I really see bright future for the next year, coz' I'll do a lot of challenges. Yeah A LOT! Next year I'll step the new land, meet new friends, build my network, face a lot of troubles that me make stronger. I'm preparing for it. Just right now I did my routine task and I will ended soon. I will take opportunity that I really like.

Resolution for 2007. I'll find step to begin my journey OUT THERE!

THIS YEAR I passed many things in my life, I felt that I'm nothing, I was learning I have something in me, I was struggling to be something for many people:

2006 journey:
I knew one of my friend was pregnant and got abortion
I applied as AIESEC National team
I got Sampoerna Indonesia Best Student 2006 and threw it!
I experienced as facilitators in National Planning Meeting
I got my mentor (Great mentor - Ali)
I finished my first research (final project) with conference at the same time
I finished my study in my first university
I was teaching my first class in the university
I felt as good leader at a time and also bad leader at other time
I joined national competition held by british council and got big 10
I took decision to be Local Committee President
I felt, I have family since I was born (thank's my EB team)
I experienced marketing in Jakarta
My car was crashed once because I was too tired
I got scholarship from my campus without any effort!
I met 4 new friends from other countries
I met artist in my LC event
I was crying with my LC members
I bought a webcam
I felt stressed with my UNCLEAR tasks!
and the last..

I felt I should have more and more challenging journey next year....

STRANGE MINO

This is MINO chen. The crazy pals from Taiwan. I met her in APXLDS 2005 Bangladesh. Haha.. She always has HER STYLE. I just talk to her few days ago in MSN. After internship in africa, she apply as CC in IPM egypt. So cool!
Surely it's surprise for me. I'll meet her again if I get elected as MCP.

I Just wondering what she look like now and what we experienced it before together in APXLDS 2005 so great. Still stick in my memories she chat with me about global issues when we are in the games. So strange. Everybody play the game and we talked something serious. ahahahah... No wonder you choose Africa as your internship destination. Can't wait to see you and hear your experience there live.

ORGaNIZeR

Since I have big internet access. I have passion to engage with the world, but lately with many things that I must do, my time management kindda ruin. I should manage it like when I did many thing in the last 4 years. I have believe in myself I can conquer myself.
THREE BIG THINGS are passing my life, finish my teaching assisstant team (reporting), my RESEARCH (my final project in campus must be finished before February 2007 or I won't get first honor even my GPA high enough to get it). The LAST and THE MOST IMPORTANT in my life is MCP election. So great and passionate about it. I promise to myself I'll be on track with time and committed to it.

YEAH!

WORLD! Get well soon! We need "connection"

Since the world has communication problem because of the earthquake in Taiwan. I always remind the memories with all Taiwanese friends here with my LC's friends. So Great memories to remember because we have a lot of fun. But I just happy because nothing happened to them and they just fine.

The things that I remember with all of these gurls:
1. Kerupuk and coffee
2. They always confuse with "rrrrr"
3. Excited about ugly things (cepot)
4. They always called Henry "lemot"
5. Always called me Harry potter (Hello I'm female!!!)

Yeah.. Just great experience as AIESECers, share fellin' with different people, different culture..

Oh ya Lately Allen (one of the gurls), taught me about how to speak Chinese, since I stopped learn this damn hard language a year ago. Thank's to you and now I can't wait to learn again.

I'll wait until world doesn't have problem with internet connection. Ohh... can't wait TO GREET THE WORLD again.

All Tat' Jazz - Weekend Redevous!

HI AIESEC! So sweet in the middle of the rain. Aidy, Willie, Siska, Rista, Imed went to all that jazz party. So cool! We saw maliq and d essential, Tompi, and some of jazz musician performed! Such a great moment, even we are not full team but it's great for us after we did many thing in December 2006. Fiuh... Local conference, common induction, pbox director interview, S&L for new comers trainees. Thank's for all EB, you are my beloved collegues and amazing friends for me. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Long trip in just one day

Arrggh.. what a long trip 260 km (Bandung-Jakarta-Depok-Jakarta-Bandung) Just for find data and meet friends in LC UI. So tired! I don't know, maybe my expectation about LC condition in other LC is similar with my LC but for the real it's different at all! Hmm.. Good experience to learn and to know. I don't know why today I faced many trouble, I don't know why my both cell phones deadddd... arghh.. and I couldn't find any data that I need! fufufu... wanna cry. I just need somebody talk with me right know. I have many questions in my head about "WHY THIS" "WHY THAT"!!! Now when I'm typing this blog, I'm eating apple from my mom. Hmmm... feel good taste sweet a little part HOME!

Today I really excited because there are two taiwanese confirm that they will come to our local conference and share their passion and their AIESEC spirit. Even exchange in our LC not so good lately and when I has joined AIESEC, I just met 1 trainee in my LC so poor exchange. But at least this LC visit from another country can be followed by great exchange number and the internationalism spirit. I believe with consistent effort and passion we will good not just in people development and information system but in every AIESEC subsystem. Yeah!....

Question in My heart!

A Creed to Live By
(one the most classic motivational poems)

Don't undermine your worth by comparing
yourself with others,

It is because we are different that each
of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people
deem important,

Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest
to your heart

Cling to that as you would your life, for without
them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living
in the past or the future.

By living your life one day at a time, you live all the
days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give

Nothing is really over … until the moment
you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less
than perfect,

It is the fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks,

It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's
impossible to find.

The quickest way to receive love is to give love.

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly,

And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your Dreams. To be without
dreams is to be without hope.

To be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run through life so fast that you forget
where you've been,

But also know where you're going.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
every step of the way.

Author Unknown

Me and My EB team

When I felt down, they supported me. When I felt happy, they with me. When I struggle hard, they help me. When I lazy to do something, they gave me reason to strive. When I have dream, they remind me all the time. When I felt exhausted, they shared their spirit. When I was doing wrong, they told me the truth. When I felt alone, they were beside me. When I lost direction, they hold my hand. When I distress, they made jokes for me. When I sicked, they encouraged me. We are sharing our life in this moment for one purpose to make better condition and sustainable growth for our beloved LC. I love this team. I love you so much.

At the end of the day...

Hmm... Since I have "short discussion with ma dad, I felt terrible with all I face for one day and unluckily that's my birthday.... owwwhh!! My mom pick me up and get me to my campus since my car has been fixed because I crashed another car last week. Then I walked and took public transportation with other aiesecers. So nice I never felt this XP since my dad gave me car 5 years ago.

Hmm.. I met David at Cisral and we were there for 5 hours until David went away and I still chat with Tatha, Suryo, and Noach. Owww I felt so hungry but nothing there... It was raining a day long and I can't go anywhere except I wanna got wet. Then I pushed myself to go to RR-an to find somebody. No one there... fufufuf.... I just bought a bowl of noddle and just ate there until some of AIESECers came..Oww guys.. I missed you so much!

I went to lembang for AMT venue survey with David, Botak, Imed, Kiwil, and Wina. So sweeecttt.. even we are dizzy because we were wet. auauhauhauha... until we went back and got dinner at ayam penyet. I couldn't eat much. My stomach not so well. Then we go to Imed Kosan for EXTRA preparation. Huaaaa...

This is horrible day. I thought..

At the end of the day, Imed wanna got ride along with me and wina with his motorcycle... oohh.. thank's Imed for this B'day present. We were chating and sharing on his motorcycle. Such a great feelin' and thanks to Ali to share with me until 2 am. hhahahah... so great.. ending! I was being recharge.

UP and DOWN!

LEARNING is a long PROCESS. Even I'm not elected as delegation in Greenwich Conference, I'll try to improve. Honestly I feel sad, but anyway life must go on, still many responsibilities and task must be done as soon as possible. I wanna show this just part of my learning experience. HURT is DELICIOUS. hahaha...

different perspective!

When I'm experiencing the real team work in my life I just realize, I should learn more about leadership. Because LEADERSHIP sense that I has got from home is not perfect. I JUST REALIZE and I SHOULD make change... make change!!! Lately I really respect my believe and I just find that my dad as my role model hasn't changed. He's static because he decided to stop learning. Such a big mistake! Then now I should follow my heart under his regime. Please GOD, I need your help to get out from this hell!

Bala-bala in Jakarta

Pancake or Bala-bala?? I will choose Bala-bala for describing Natcon II, it's really make my head on ache. Not only my head, but also my heart, my soul, and also my knee (because I felt down). So shit, but I got the biggest learning point in my life, biggest opportunity in my life to experience Greenwich conference interview and free ielts test in British council Jakarta. It's amazing! Happened once in my life and I got enormous learning in my life. I met Mia Annisa as team leader for Greenwich Conference selection (So cool!) I really miss her since we met in Bangladesh at APXLDS 2005. (long time no see) But after no sleep at the first two days because of sometin' mess! But finally it's finish and finished beautifully. I really thank's to DAVID and IMED. Thank's to David because of your ANGER and your bad emotion develop me more to learn one thing in this life called "PATIENT" and thanks to Imed for your LATENESS to woke up at the conference (You woke up at 1 pm, man!) when I wasn't at venue and gave responsibilities to you, I learn how be PATIENT one more time. Huauauhhaha... so silly but truly, genuinely, honestly These are good learning for you and me to know, people is dynamic, not always improving all the time. Afterall I LEARN that I'm a human.

Conversation with Noach.. my mentee

hmm.. Noach, really GREAT if you r reading books to find out more about our purpose in life. I am reading 8th habit now. 7 habits or 8th habit, Yup sama-sama butuh perenungan ngga bisa sekaligus dibaca kaya baca novel... then you said what we must do if we face ironic world. In one hand we have tense to help other people, give impact, positive impact of course, but other people expect we DO their work, not help them.

Yeah.. it's hard for us.

Pertanyaannya tricky but it's good for me also to learn more about life.

Selama ini gw mencari arti dan tujuan hidup gw, gw juga selalu bingung kalo diminta bantuan untuk contekan, mengerjakan soal orang lain dll. Yup I experience that a LOT LOT TIME!

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT??? BEING LCP HELP ME A LOT TO ANSWER ALL MY QUESTION IN MY HEAD, INCLUDING THIS ONE!

What did I do? Gw ngga pernah menghindar kalo memang orang lain mencontek kerjaan kita, kalo gw diminta dengan sangat untuk MEMBERIKAN contekan, gw akhirnya juga berikan. Kalo dibilang bertentangan dengan nilai agama, YEAP of course, no DOUBT. But people as human has their own choice. MY CHOICE, YOUR CHOICE. We can't decide other people will and what they wanna do. But we should know one thing, THE POSITIVE IMPACT isn't short cut and Indeed it's A PREETY LONG PROCESS (as long as our life)

Me of course, I show other people by trying to make melody in my work, as persistent as I can do, because LIFE is our way to PROVE what is wrong and what is right. As long we are persistent in right path to always give the real positive impact,GOD NEVER CLOSE HIS EYES and someday people also will know where they are standing. Where are we standing now, just yourself can find out.

FIND OUT OUR PATH NOW!

HONESTLY I have never perceived so clearly If I didn't take this position.

At the end, it still remain question in my head, the question is "I don't know, why?"

My Holiday didn't count..

Since I used my holiday for applying free several conferences and do my final project, my life has been screwed up because not enough rest, then I felt terrible. But today Greenwich conference sent me an email that told me, I'm being accepted as one of short list candidates for this lovely Conference in London. Happy. Ya even I don't have big opportunities at least I'm part of it to develop me more. I love mom, who always teach me how to thank what we have and what we got. Thank's Jesus, thank's mom.

My final test so hard, oh my, I'd never thought it before I realized it's so hard. DAMN complicated. But I should give extra power to finish it faster than other people can do. COME ON! My friend finished it (for the same econometric model) in 8 months, I'll finish it just in 4 months! GOD HELP ME! GIMME STRENGTH!

Teach and being

Yeah today 20 students came to my class and hmm.. not so passionate about delivering since I felt tired today coz' I chat with Wina for 1 hour in phone last midnight and we have little intense discussion. Now I'm sitting in front my laptop, feel my stomach bit ache and have several things to do this evening. Tommorow EB will say the truth to all newbies about our LC condition and progress report for accountibility and transparency to all members. Yeah we don't want to hurt any people feelin' and make the motivation down but we will try the best for that! So let's see.. what next will be happened?

AI Director visit and strange day in Jakarta

For last two days I attended 1 meeting with AI director for Asia Pacific, Ryan. (Oh.. Director yang Aneh!) then I met my friend to pass a book for my beloved lecturer, Then Great SG meeting. Honestly I became great because there was free chinese round table dinner! HUAHUAHA... Mr. Amir seems very very concern about environmental issues, then I realize he's really cool! Charming guy, with low voice but totally ellegant! Then after we finished eat, MC gave souvenir to Ryan and set meeting to pick ryan up at 6 am. Then we went home and it's so tiring day! fiuh...
Then today I went to industrial ministry and jakarta stock exchange, totally I hadn't expected what I feel today. Industrial ministry is horrible then I felt sick about it. There's no proper data, bad nature of work, bad working culture, and so pathetics! DAMN HORRIBLE! I never want to come again to that horrible place. If I come I must be one of change agent to change all bad things there. PROMISE TO MYSELF!

Global warming and climate change

What we should do about it? When I heard about this problem, direct from Al Gore (But I saw on DVD..) oh ok, that is not important anyway. I really schock! Oh.. my God I just realize, we are just like fish on the kettle and boiled slowly but sure. We as a fish don't know what happened to us and we still enjoy live in the warm water even it's getting hotter and hotter for a long long time. Any people activities in the world impact to this global warming? What we should do, because this is GLOBAL PROBLEM, must be ended with GLOBAL SOLUTION and GLOBAL AWARENESS too. Let's start with our act now. By using electricity efficiently we contribute to reduce the threats, by using gas wisely we increasing hope for our next generation living, by not smoking we save one person and reduce global warming. FOR GOD SAKE, ACT NOW!

Fear is an illusion

I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot. Why? Because when you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.

If I'm going to jump into a pool of water, even though I can't swim, I'm thinking about being able to swim at least enough to survive. I'm not jumping in thinking to myself, "I think I can swim, but maybe I'll drown." If I'm jumping into any situation, I'm thinking I'm going to be successful. I'm not thinking about what happens if I fail.

But I can see how some people get frozen by that fear of failure. They get it from peers or from just thinking about the possibility of a negative result. They might be afraid of looking bad or being embarrassed. That's not good enough for me. I realized that if I was going to achieve anything in life, I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it. I don't believe you can achieve anything by being passive. I know fear is an obstacle for some people, but it's an illusion to me. Once I'm in there, I'm not thinking about anything except what I'm trying to accomplish.

Any fear is an illusion. You think something is standing in your way, but nothing is really there. What is there is an opportunity to do your best and gain some success. If it turns out my best isn't good enough, then at least I'll never be able to look back and say I was too afraid to try. Maybe I just didn't have it. Maybe I just wasn't good enough. There's nothing wrong with that and nothing to be afraid of either. Failure always made me try harder the next time. That's why my advice has always been to "think positive" and find fuel in failure.

Sometimes failure actually just gets you closer to where you want to be. If I’m trying to fix a car, every time I try something that doesn't work, I'm getting closer to finding the answer. The greatest inventions in the world had hundreds of failures before the answers were found. I think fear sometimes comes from a lack of focus or concentration, especially in sports. If I had stood at the free-throw line and thought about 10 million people watching me on the other side of the camera lens, I couldn't have made anything. So I mentally tried to put myself in a familiar place.

I thought about all those times I shot free throws in practice and went through the same motion, the same technique that I had used thousands of times. You forget about the outcome. You know you are doing the right things. So you relax and perform. After that you can't control anything anyway. It's out of your hands, so don't worry about it.

It's no different than making a presentation in the business world or doing a report for school. If you did all the things necessary, then it's out of your hands. Either the clients liked the presentation or they didn't. It's up to the client, the buyer or the teacher. I can accept failure. Everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying. That's why I wasn't afraid to try baseball. I can't say, "Well, I can't do it because I'm afraid I may not make the team." That's not good enough for me. It doesn't matter if you win as long as you give everything in your heart and work at it 110 percent.

Fear is an illusion.

Michael Jordan

ICDRS 2006

Opportunity that I won't miss it! I am trying to find out about China and India issues and I know this is not easy to reach. Maybe I'll get or maybe I won't get because not enough money for it, but I'm trying to strecth my capacity and my believe

"I CAN IF I HAVE WILLING".

China and India are countries with unique traditions and great civilization then I have passion about them!
New York I will try to reach you!! Wait for me!

Since one AIESEC member asked me about how to lead people and people who are led feel they aren't being dictated??? Such challenging question dude!! hahaa... but I'll answer it in my language!

Then we start from.. bagaimana sebuah kelompok terbentuk? Apakah kelompok ini dibentuk oleh keterpaksaan atau karena kesukarelaan? Hal yang lebih penting lagi untuk dipertanyakan, apakah peran pemimpin di dalam kelompok ini?? Apakah sebagai pemimpin otoritas (atas nama jabatan saja) atau berperan sebagai pemimpin yang muncul karena jiwa kepemimpinan di dalam diri orang yang bersangkutan?

That must be answer by your condition! Then perspektif kepemimpinan yang sesungguhnya bahwa kepemimpinan itu bukan mengenai masalah jabatan atau masalah kewenangan, karena kepemimpinan adalah pilihan individu. YOUR CHOICE, MY CHOICE! Bahkan individu tanpa jabatan atau otoritas sekalipun adalah pemimpin bila ia terus belajar mengembangkan karakter-karakter kepemimpinan di dalam dirinya!

Orang yang sedang membaca artikel ini dan merasa bahwa dirinya belum menjadi SEORANG PEMIMPIN yang sesungguhnya bila anda belum pernah atau tidak sedang menjadi ketua projek besar/menjadi pimpinan atau pengurus organisasi! IT'S BIG MISTAKE!!! HUGE MISTAKE!

Ketika sedang berbicara mengenai kepemimpinan yang memesona banyak orang, kita sedang berbicara tentang bagaimana kita memimpin orang. Memimpin bukanlah mengatur benda, tetapi memimpin manusia-manusia yang dinamis dan berpribadi unik. Benda adalah hal yang dapat kita atur dan kita situasikan, tetapi tidak bila kita memimpin dalam arti yang sesungguhnya!

Bila Kita sudah belajar mengenai arti kepemimpinan atas diri sendiri dengan sendirinya orang lain akan mengikuti arahan dan perintah kita, tanpa mereka menyadarinya!

"SIAPAPUN YANG INGIN MEMIMPIN ORANG LAIN, PERTAMA-TAMA HARUS MENGUASAI DIRINYA SENDIRI!"

Philip Massinger!

ITULAH ARTI YANG SESUNGGUHNYA DAN JAWABANNYA ADA DALAM HATI ANDA!!!

Bali, we will come!

Today is GREAT!!! All EBs gathered in Imed house and we ate traditional food from origin cities after we had ied holiday for 2 weeks. Arhgg.. that's beautiful! Then Me, Wina, Rista, Vita, and Siska had conversation in my car, we have a dream to have farewell party in Bali (At Imed House!)

We were dreaming, dreaming, and dreaming. It's so great when we can feel what will happened, after all this responsibilities over!! Arghh.. I can't imagine so sad and happy too. This journey was began and must be ended beautifully! It's so great feelin'!! I want to shout loudly! This is AMAZING EXPERIENCE!!

How beautiful Bali is, when we can get there! How clear the water as we can see our face in the mirror! How fresh the air as oxigen go in through our lungs! How salty the water sea when we can dive within! How excited we are when we are 50 meters from the ground and GO Bungy! How free we are when the wind blow hard in our face!!

HOW FREE????
AS FREE AS WE CAN GO!!!

When all become one!

Do you know that we, as human has big three elements in our life to reach our greatest goal??? They are knowledge, attitude, and skills. How we manage that to be great person who give impact to our society? We should build it from ground perspective. Start from what we were made!

HUMAN ingredients:
1. Thought
2. Soul
3. Heart
4. Body

What we can do with these?? We should have vision from our thoughts, inner from soul, passion from heart, and dicipline from our body. We use what we have to colaborate our knowledge, attitude, and skills. Build them from our self and we become powerful as you can't imagined before. Become one, become our Identity!

START TODAY!

Challenge for new day!

When I just heard Tomas resigned from AIESEC Indonesia, so sad. And anyway... today is great even many things shocked me. It's all about teaching assistant tough. It's not AIESEC and I just realize, it's hard to mantain people if we don't have same culture. It's totally sucks. And also there's friend asked me, why I didn't attend class for in a week. I just said "I resign", But it's hurt my heart!!! It remind me that I lost application fee. fufufuf...

I will start my routine tommorow, I prepare my schedule, it's so full. IT's challenge! Aidy, aidy!!a CHALLENGE!!! CHALLENGE!!!

Owww.. shit I my dream last night is strange, maybe it was happened because my bed sheath. I feel I should change my bed sheath so smelly iugh!! And sorry GOD lately I didn't pray before I slept. Thank's again to my mom who always remember me to pray before I slept.

I was surprised because today, I just start my activities and my phone rang many times. Oghh.. damn I don't preety like it!! Didn't go for lectures of course, today is the first day I realize, I should go for master degree lecture and I didn't go for it. SHIT THING HAPPENED when we don't like it and we should do IT! So good bye master degree, I really don't care!
I went to Imed dorm with Muti and we did task force card for newbies, hey Imed gave my T-Shirt with TAG, "ING BALI AKEH ASU" owww I love it!! THANK's Lovely Imed! I'll use it soon!

Candy-candy! OShin passed to me this Anime-Series. Such a long time ago... (back to 90th) Aghh, my life is such a lame, just because this crap I just slept 2 hours before we felt new EXPERIENCE at funeral.
Today Me and David went to Tya'house. So sad, Tya' dad was passed away and we follow until its burried. Hey David did you realize that we again talk about AIESEC at horrible place! IT FUNERAL GOD DAMN IT!! But I believe we won't loss its MEANING! Come ON David believe me, APXLDS is better for YOU as an EB and LCP candidate than NDLS SG. Even it's more expensive there will a way. YA! There will be a way! I Believe!

IQ, EQ, PQ, SQ! (what these are all about?)

Quotient. We all human search for it for entire living. I just curious, why it's expanding lately, from IQ (Intelligent quotient), EQ (Emotional Quotient), SQ (Spiritual Quotient), PQ (Physical Quotient), until at the last I heard FQ (Financial Quotient). Such high-frequent word... "OH QUOTIENT". Word-Artist!

In my deepest brain, I don't know where, (left-IQ) or (Right-EQ)? I start to find the meaning of them, one by one. Which one from the part of quotient will impact most of our life? Then I found the answer. "QUOTIENT BALANCE". We should have balance between IQ, EQ, SQ, and PQ!

IQ lead us to think, make cause-effect analysis, doin' math, describe somethin' and create our level of understanding. But many people just concentrate in this holy shit thing! Because I thought before, this is our future, what we learn at school, 8 hours per day, 6 days a week for 16 years in elementary school, junior high school, senior high school, and collage.

EQ is knowledge about knowing our self, sensitivity to feel change in our environment and also to estimate time, empathy, communication skill (I called it communication with voice and also with gesture, either with heart), courageous to confess our mistakes, respect diversity, etc. Who gonna be successful leader should develop these more than others! but keep your life in balance!

PQ is our body of course! We should count it on, coz' our body, my body is beautiful. Hohoho.. It has authority for a living. My brain execute heart to beat, lungs to suck the air, self-healing, laughing, sneeze, and also fart! pufff... It's amazing. Isn't it?

SQ is the foundation from 3 quotients above. It's helping us to stack our principles, values, and connect our soul with our believes, our purposes in life. Just this quotient when can claim that we are the most valuable creatures on earth.

Don't ever waste your life even a second! Start to balancing your QUOTIENTS!

Stretch our CAPACITY!

Leadership is not born or made. Leadership is self-made. It's shaped by decisions that we made. when we want to improve our capacity as a leader, we should make a decision to go out from comfort zone. You can assume that we are right-leg-muscle from the person who after had an accident. As a muscle, we want to get bigger and support left-leg to walk. First week when we are being used to walk, we will be torn and it's hurt. Second week when we are being used to use stairs, we will be torn and it's hurt. Third week when we are being used to squat, we will torn and it's hurt. Forth week when we are being used to jump, we will torn and it's hurt. Fifth week when are being used for run. We will torn and it's hurt. IT'S HURT, but WE ARE GROWING.. It's never ending journey until this man, the muscle owner, say I won't do nothing then we will stop growing.

The decision is in your hand!

YOU ARE THE MAN!

Memory from APXLDS 2005

I just opened my old folder and I saw several photos from APXLDS 2005. Owww... so miss all the delegates. Tingwei, Mino, Sheana, Sayeed, Waseef. I miss you guys! Also I just realize where are all beloved facis right now? In two years (almost) I never contact AP mama 2004-2005 again. Where is she now? I miss her! Somebody slap me! slap me! to make wake me up! Bang! POoW! Oh GOD I miss everybody!

Proactive ness

Ketika kita hidup dan berkarya dalam organisasi, kampus, atau kelompok manapun di dunia ini, termasuk salah satunya keanggotaan kita di dalam keluarga, kita selalu merasakan hambatan menghimpit diri kita dan berujung pada keterpaksaan untuk melakukan menyelesaikannya. Gw baru tau penyebab masalahnya tadi pagi. Contoh yang sangat relevan gw kaitan dengan kondisi negara kita yang dapat kita ibaratkan sebagai sebuah organisasi!

Gw mulai dengan Q&A!

Q: kenapa ya negara kita ko sejak krisis sampe dengan sekarang begini-begini mulu. Perkembangannya tidak secepat negara-negara lain yang juga sama-sama kena krisis?

A: Ya. memang kondisinya demikian dan sebaiknya kita tidak membandingkan dengan negara orang lain. Mulailah dengan evaluasi internal terlebih dahulu.

Q: Memang kenapa? Apakah karena pemimpin-pemimpin negara ini yang tidak becus memimpin?

A: Kalo memang iya. Kita harus tau kenapa mereka sampai bisa bertindak seperti itu.

Q: Wah apa nih penyebabnya? saya jadi penasaran!

A: Kita perlu menelaah budaya kita. Kita sangat terbiasa dengan panggilan 'Aden', 'Eneng', 'Ndoro', 'bos', 'tauke', atau apapun itu yang secara tidak langsung membentuk paradigma bahwa orang lain yang kita beri julukan seperti di atas adalah pemimpin kita dan kita adalah pengikut mereka.

Q: Memang apa hubungannya dengan krisis negara kita?

A: Dengan paradigma yang seperti itu, dapat dibayangkan berapa persen orang Indonesia yang benar-benar memandang dirinya sebagai pemimpin.

Q: Lah memang pemimpin kan tidak banyak kuotanya! Gimana bisa kita bersaing untuk memperebutkan sedikit potongan kue?

A: Arti kepemimpinan tidaklah sesempit itu. Kepemimpinan sangatlah luas artinya, dimulai dari kemampuan untuk mengatasi dan mengendalikan diri sendiri. Mengetahui apa yang terbaik bagi diri kita dan apa yang hendak kita capai adalah salah satu bentuk kepemimpinan dasar.

Q: Bagaimana cara memulainya?

A: Mudah saja. Mulailah dengan melakukan sesuatu tanpa ada instruksi apapun dan dari syapa pun untuk membuat diri anda lebih siap menghadapi masa depan dan setelahnya lakukan hal yang bisa anda lakukan untuk lingkungan anda agar lingkungan anda menjadi lebih baik.

Q: Contoh dari 'sesuatu' itu apa?

A: Dari hal terkecil, yang sedang anda BACA adalah pengejewantahan sebuah PROACTIVENESS. Saya mempelajari banyak hal, tapi saya berpikir dan menyimpulkan bahwa dengan membagikannya kepada orang lain dengan bahasa yang lebih mudah dimengerti akan membantu orang lain untuk bertumbuh dan berkembang. Itu hanya secuplik dari contoh "SESUATU" yang bisa kita lakukan.

Q: Apakah harus selalu dalam bentuk tulisan seperti ini?

A: Tentu saja tidak. Banyak yang bisa kita lakukan dengan peran kita di dalam kampus, tempat kerja, organisasi, bahkan dalam kerumunan massa sekalipun, misalnya ketika ada seseorang yang membutuhkan pertolongan atau ada nenek yang minta bantuan kita. Hal-hal tersebut sangat sederhana tetapi OTAK KITA MENCERNANYA DENGAN SANGAT RUMIT!

Q: Mengapa bisa begitu?

A: Karena PARADIGMA bangsa ini mengenai KEPEMIMPINAN itu belum banyak berubah.

Q: Bagaimana memulai perubahannya?

A: Mulailah menerapkannya dalam diri anda dan bantu mereka yang belum pernah mendengarnya untuk memahami dan menerapkannya dalam hidup mereka. Saya rasa semua akar permasalahan bangsa ini berujung pada kepemimpinan diri masing-masing warganya!

One step ahead to demonstrating integrity!

Grateful

Ohh.. dizzy dizzy dizzy I slept at 6 in the morning and woke up at 3 p.m such as a horrible living! I should repair it and make it normal again, but last night thanks to Wisnu, he remind me valuable things were happened on me so I should thanks to GOD. I have any kind of these responsibilities in my hand right now. I have done them so well until now and should do it better and better. Being Local Committee President, Teaching Asisstant Coordinator, and still work on my research really huge responsibilities on my hand. I just realize it GOD help me more than I expected.

Then I realize I should thank's to these great women, Wulan, Ninda, and Feny. Your work and dedication are amazing! I just realize when Feny worked hard for many trainings "alone", Wulan also must handled many administration and finance thing, and Ninda was being 5-6 SN managers. It's so crazy! After 5 months I did something in AIESEC and within AIESEC anyway I never got exhausted to always remind people, what I have been done it's simply work and they also should challenge them self to improve their capacity. Day by day I live with my friends, David, Imed, Wina, Rista, Vita, Siska, and Willi. I love work with all of you guys. Guys I told you more and more about leadership, struggling, reach your vision and how to be excellent people in your daily life. But you all also thaught me one thing valuable. "CONNECTION"!

How we manage our time?

Gw coba membagikan pengalaman dimana gw pernah merasakan kuliah 5 macam (UNPAD - UNPAR) dalam satu hari dengan rentang waktu satu semester, tapi syukurnya gw masih bisa mengatasi semua mata kuliah itu dengan hasil baik.Kalo bertemu dengan hari dimana elo sudah membuat jadwal yang akan dikerjakan, sudah membuat estimasi waktu untuk itu, dan ternyata kegiatannya sangat padat tapi masih reasonable untuk dilakukan, jangan pernah ragu bahwa kita tidak sanggup untuk mengerjakannya! (misalnya dalam satu hari kita harus mengerjakan 10 pekerjaan yang berat-berat dan kita belom pernah merasakan itu! Jangan takut ngga bisa!)

DO IT!

(Asumsikan kalo mata kuliah itu, pekerjaan yang harus dilakukan serta menyangkut orang lain! Basicly it's the same thing and you can assume it)

I start with Q&A!

Q: duh gila nih (pas jadwal keluar) masa ada jadwal yang satu hari 5 Mata kuliah?? Gw harus gimana?? apa gw buang aja ya mata kuliahnya? tapi ini penting banget! Kalo ngga diambil gw bisa lulus satu tahun lebih lama!

A: Jangan dibuang deh kalo gitu!

Q: tapi gimana ya caranya!?

A: Langkah pertama, analisis dan buat prioritas mata kuliah dari yang paling penting sampe yang kurang penting! dan dari yang paling mudah sampe paling sulit!

Q: Iya tapi tetep aja ngga mungkin gw jalanin, karena kapasitas gw cuma 4! Itu juga udah mengelus dada. (Kapasitas kita mungkin lebih besar dari yang kita pikirkan karena hal tersebut dibentuk oleh lingkungan dan otak kita! Mungkin secara alamiah manusia sanggup melakukan hal yang luar biasa, seperti belajar 10 jam setiap hari tapi kadang hal tersebut sangat terhambat oleh rasa malas dan pola institusi pendidikan kita yang mengkotak-kotak serta membatasi jam belajar karena PEMBELAJARAN versi kita adalah duduk di dalam kelas dan membaca buku, padahal harus kita pikiran apakah makna proses pembelajaran itu!)

A: Langkah kedua, lo pikir2 lagi mana sih dosen (orang yang terlibat dalam pekerjaan) yang bersifat fleksibel dan ngga mempermasalahkan kalo kita minta pindah waktu kuliah! dengan syarat kita harus tunjukan kalo kita adalah orang konsisten dan persisten. (tidak bikin pusing orang yang kerja sama kita dengan dateng telat, pindah2 kelas seenaknya, dll!)

Q: Kalo gw udah nego dan ternyata ada dosen yang ngga ngasih gimana dunk??

A: Coba lebih terbuka (accountable) kasih liat semua jadwal kita dalam 1 minggu, buat dia merasakan kesulitan kita tapi Jangan maksa ok!? dan tetep bilang maaf mengganggu dan terima kasih kalo ditolak!

Q: Kalo dosennya ngasih dan kita tetep ngga bisa gimana?

A: kita harus bilang sejujurnya kalo kita tetep ngga bisa dengan jadwal yang dosen itu tawarkan dengan asumsi kita memperlihatkan jadwal kita! Jangan lupa bilang terima kasih atas niat baik dia untuk menolong kita!

Q; kalo kita sudah datangi semua dosen dan semua dosen bilang kita tidak bisa merubah jadwal, gimana dong?

A: Pake list prioritas yang sudah dibuat (Penting s.d kurang penting) (Mudah s.d sulit) dan korbankan satu bila sifatnya saling meniadakan tapi kalo masih bisa diusahakan dan tidak ada risikonya (jalani saja)

TANTANGAN yang SULIT dan MENEGANGKAN bila berhasil dilalui dengan baik, SECARA LANGSUNG MENGEMBANGKAN KAPASITAS DIRI dan KEMAMPUAN KITA dalam MENGHADAPI MASA DEPAN dan secara tidak langsung menambah KEPERCAYAAN DIRI kita dalam menghadapi MASALAH YANG LEBIH BESAR LAGI!!

Saat dimana kita merasa takut dan mundur dengan tantangan dan masalah besar yang kita hadapi atau yang ditawarkan kepada kita untuk kita hadapi, saat itulah, langkah kita menuju kesuksesan masa depan berhenti seketika!

One step ahead to striving for excellence!

"When leaders share their feelings"

I took a trip to Jakarta at 8 in the morning. I expected to meet several LCP from other LC and also my MCP who invited me the day before yesterday to come to Jakarta. I just surprise today I took X-trans travel and I just the only passenger! Oh my God! then I arrived at 9.25. Fiuh it's so early because along the street is so empty, maybe because everybody has already out from the city for holiday. I just arrive at plaza Semanggi (P'langi) and I just windows shopping even the windows haven't opened yet. It's still dark, I just bought some dougnouts and sat on J.CO until Grace and Diah arrived! Then Edja, Guran, and two LC UB' EBs came at 11.

We moved to food court for electricity plugs, then we start to share our LC' problems, I can't imagine before that LC's problems are so complicated! Hohoho... It's so pressing our mind, our feeling also burst! Hohoho...

And after this long conversation, I just can say, "LCPs,MCP be patient, we are not alone, we are the greatest people who can conquer the world!"

Also I hope LC UB and LC UI problems (about visa application for Yusuf) can be solved as soon as possible. As person who hear it directly from two LCPs who really responsible with this is really stress, I can't imagine if I'm on your position guys. It's so challenging!

"Most people who succeed in the face of seemingly impossible conditions are people who simply don't know how to quit."

-Robert Schuller-

Leaders' character

Kalo kita teliti lebih dalam apa ya kerjaan seorang pemimpin?? Nah kadang gw juga suka bingung, tetapi setelah gw baca banyak buku tentang kepemimpinan ternyata job desc leader itu lebih condong ke pembentukan karakter dirinya sendiri.

Why??
Banyak yang bisa dilakukan leader dengan bermacam-macam aktivitas, apalagi di AIESEC! Tetapi apa sih yang membuat seorang pemimpin bisa membuat sebuah organisasi atau kelompoknya berkembang??

yang bisa membuat itu semua yaitu KARAKTER PEMIMPINnya!

Ketika seorang pemimpin dapat membuat anggota kelompoknya memiliki ruang yang cukup untuk berkreasi dan mengembangkan diri, maka manifestasi energi dari setiap anggota akan membangun organisasi tersebut! semakin besar, semakin luas!

Membuat anggota kelompok memiliki "ruang" yang cukup untuk berkreasi tidak dapat diartikan secara harafiah!

Q: Nah lantas "ruang" itu artinya apa dong?

A: Ruang yang cukup dapat diartikan sebagai kapasitas diri masing-masing anggota dan kapasitas lingkungan untuk saling bersinergi membangun jejaring yang solid dan kokoh dari tingkat yang paling atas hingga yang paling rendah!

Q: Nah jadi si pemimpin disini perannya apa?

A: Di saat pertama, pemimpin akan menentukan bentuk dan luas ruang untuk para anggotanya dalam bekerjasama, saling berhubungan (membangun interdependensi) (Strategic minded)
Selanjutnya pemimpin perlu mengembangkan kapasitas di dalam ruang masing-masing individu.

Q: Gimana caranya??

A: Pemimpinnya harus punya kemampuan untuk menjadi ibu bagi anggota lainnya.

Q: Ibu yang bagaimana?

A: Pertanyaan ini harus disesuaikan dengan kondisi anggota kelompoknya! (Fleksibilitas)
Kadang ibu yang galak cocok untuk mendidik anak bertipe A, tidak untuk yang bertipe B atau sebaliknya tipe ibu yang lembut cocok untuk mendidik anak tipe B, tetapi tidak untuk tipe A (Peka)

Q: Lantas apa cuma itu saja?

A: tentu saja tidak! Dalam memelihara kondisi kapasitas "ruang" individu yang senantiasa berubah pemimpin harus (SABAR), (SETIA), dan (PENUH KASIH) dalam membina anggota kelompoknya!

Q: Wah berarti jadi pemimpin itu berat dong?

A: Pandangan mengenai tugas seorang pemimpin itu berat atau tidak, tergantung sejauh apakah sifat dan karakter pemimpin itu berkembang di dalam dirimu!

Karena pemimpin akan mencerminkan dua hal yang penuh arti yaitu, keteladanan dan pelayanan. Itulah job desc pemimpin pada mulanya!

Q: Tapi sekarang saya hanya melakukan tugas kecil dalam kelompok saya dan peran saya tidak berarti!! Bagaimana saya dianggap pemimpin? Saya cuma sekedar "BANTU-BANTU"! gimana dong?

A: Peran dan besar-kecilnya pekerjaan tergantung persepsi kita pada diri kita sendiri, kalo kita memandangnya kecil dan tidak berharga, maka itulah diri kita. Bentuk pelayanan sekecil apapun adalah awal dari sebuah keteladanan dan kepemimpinan. Sehingga JANGAN PERNAH MEMANDANG ITU KECIL karena usaha yang kau anggap kecil itu, tidak akan pernah sia-sia!

Karena mungkin bagimu itu tidak berarti, tetapi itu sangat berarti buat orang lain!

PIKIRKANLAH ITU!

One Step Ahead for Activating Leadership!

Time management

We are the next global leader so we must know how to manage our time in efficient and effective ways!

Why?
Ketika kita melihat pemimpin-pemimpin besar dunia yang sudah mengukir nama mereka di kitab besar sejarah dunia, pernahkah kita berpikir bahwa mereka memiliki waktu sebanyak 24 jam setiap hari, sama seperti kita untuk meraih cita-cita dan impian mereka?

Nah.. kalo mereka bisa, kenapa kita harus mengerutkan dahi dan sambil cengengesan bergumam, "oh iya yah?"

Gw akan coba bagikan sedikit pengalaman tentang manajemen waktu yang gw alami sendiri, not by theory but by experience. Kalo ada yang salah mohon dikoreksi karena gw juga masih dalam tahap pembelajaran.

Gw akan mencoba setiap pembelajaran dengan pertanyaan yang akan gw jawab, syapa tau pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini pernah muncul dibenak kalian!

Q: Duh, hari ini si A minta tolong, si B butuh gw tolongin, gw kuliah dua pelajaran, dosennya killer Bo! Apa yah yang harus gw lakukan?

A: Hmm.. mungkin gw harus mulai dengan mengambil agenda, ambil pulpen mendaftar semua hal yang harus dikerjakan dan yang dituntut dari saya untuk saya mengerjakannya hari ini, besok, dan juga seterusnya!

Q: Tapi untuk hari ini semua penting dan malah kalo kuliah jatah bolos gw udah abis nih! Gimana ya???

A: hmm.. gimana kalo gw mulai dengan mengestimasi berapa lama waktu yang dibutuhkan untuk mengerjakan masing-masing kegiatan, trus gw jumlah jamleh! (kemampuan mengestimasi ini penting low!)

A: Wah ternyata walaupun kerjaannya banyak waktu yang gw punya dalam satu hari cukup ya untuk melakukan itu semua! (mungkin gw cuma butuh konsistensi untuk melakukannya dan tahan godaan kalo ada ajakan temen untuk maen atau sekedar hangout!)

Q: Duh kalo untuk besok waktu gw udah bener2 ngga cukup nih untuk melakukan sepuluh kegiatan! Gimana ya??

A: Hmm.. gw coba untuk melakukan apa yang dituntut dari gw untuk mencapai visi yang gw ingin kan deh! gitu lebih baiK! baru setelahnya gw coba melakukan apa yang gw inginkan!

Q: Duh tapi kuliah bener2 sejalan dengan visi gw tapi kadang2, dosennya ngga penting, gw ngga dapet apa2 niy dalem kelas! Gimana ya??

A: Mungkin gw bisa coba kerjakan sesuatu hal yang menghabiskan waktu gw di dalam kelas (seperti membaca, mengerjakan tugas-tugas kecil), tapi sebenernya kalo gw lakukan itu di dalam kelas itu tidak mengganggu syapa-syapa dan gw yakin gw bisa tetap mengikuti pelajaran dengan baik! (Pastikan itu ya!)

"Law of LEADERSHIP" - by John C. Maxwell. When Tomas told me to read this book. I doubt it because I think leadership isn't behind word, it's behind our daily life. It's behind our act, our sight, and our believe. Then I just took it at book store. Today I just read my 2nd John C. Maxwell's book. It's telling about leadership and it's inspiring me a lot. Could you imagine somebody can really change million of people through the words. I believe when I started read his book, because it's happened in me, again and again.

You should try to open the first page, read until finish, and you will keep it open for other people.

My conversation with my greatest VP

Just three hours ago, we chat on yahoo messenger about new members account in www.aiesec.net, we were waiting for approving new members account. So the conversation begin with one question from David. "Aidy, could you mention your doubtness about me for being LCP?". So I said, "great", "everything from you is so great, beside one thing EMOTION CONTROL". Honestly I have no doubt about you David. You know everything best for our LC and I know you struggle for it because last night you said, you love aiesec more than yourself. Your dream to become aiesec international isn't dream, it's happening now. You are on the way and nothing can block you to get it!

POWER OF DREAM!

Hi to AIESEC around The World!

Thank you David for teaching me how to build this blogs. Hope by this blog my daily life can inspire many people who really want to know how what's happened around us in daily life. A year ago, I still was trying to explore what in me, but I didn't found it, until I realize, I should trying to explore what happend to this world through experience which really inspire me. It's called AIESEC Experience. These days I realize, that experience is in my hand!

It start today, It start just right now and you all my witness!

Greet to the world!

HI AIESEC!!!!

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