UP and DOWN!

LEARNING is a long PROCESS. Even I'm not elected as delegation in Greenwich Conference, I'll try to improve. Honestly I feel sad, but anyway life must go on, still many responsibilities and task must be done as soon as possible. I wanna show this just part of my learning experience. HURT is DELICIOUS. hahaha...

different perspective!

When I'm experiencing the real team work in my life I just realize, I should learn more about leadership. Because LEADERSHIP sense that I has got from home is not perfect. I JUST REALIZE and I SHOULD make change... make change!!! Lately I really respect my believe and I just find that my dad as my role model hasn't changed. He's static because he decided to stop learning. Such a big mistake! Then now I should follow my heart under his regime. Please GOD, I need your help to get out from this hell!

Bala-bala in Jakarta

Pancake or Bala-bala?? I will choose Bala-bala for describing Natcon II, it's really make my head on ache. Not only my head, but also my heart, my soul, and also my knee (because I felt down). So shit, but I got the biggest learning point in my life, biggest opportunity in my life to experience Greenwich conference interview and free ielts test in British council Jakarta. It's amazing! Happened once in my life and I got enormous learning in my life. I met Mia Annisa as team leader for Greenwich Conference selection (So cool!) I really miss her since we met in Bangladesh at APXLDS 2005. (long time no see) But after no sleep at the first two days because of sometin' mess! But finally it's finish and finished beautifully. I really thank's to DAVID and IMED. Thank's to David because of your ANGER and your bad emotion develop me more to learn one thing in this life called "PATIENT" and thanks to Imed for your LATENESS to woke up at the conference (You woke up at 1 pm, man!) when I wasn't at venue and gave responsibilities to you, I learn how be PATIENT one more time. Huauauhhaha... so silly but truly, genuinely, honestly These are good learning for you and me to know, people is dynamic, not always improving all the time. Afterall I LEARN that I'm a human.

Conversation with Noach.. my mentee

hmm.. Noach, really GREAT if you r reading books to find out more about our purpose in life. I am reading 8th habit now. 7 habits or 8th habit, Yup sama-sama butuh perenungan ngga bisa sekaligus dibaca kaya baca novel... then you said what we must do if we face ironic world. In one hand we have tense to help other people, give impact, positive impact of course, but other people expect we DO their work, not help them.

Yeah.. it's hard for us.

Pertanyaannya tricky but it's good for me also to learn more about life.

Selama ini gw mencari arti dan tujuan hidup gw, gw juga selalu bingung kalo diminta bantuan untuk contekan, mengerjakan soal orang lain dll. Yup I experience that a LOT LOT TIME!

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT??? BEING LCP HELP ME A LOT TO ANSWER ALL MY QUESTION IN MY HEAD, INCLUDING THIS ONE!

What did I do? Gw ngga pernah menghindar kalo memang orang lain mencontek kerjaan kita, kalo gw diminta dengan sangat untuk MEMBERIKAN contekan, gw akhirnya juga berikan. Kalo dibilang bertentangan dengan nilai agama, YEAP of course, no DOUBT. But people as human has their own choice. MY CHOICE, YOUR CHOICE. We can't decide other people will and what they wanna do. But we should know one thing, THE POSITIVE IMPACT isn't short cut and Indeed it's A PREETY LONG PROCESS (as long as our life)

Me of course, I show other people by trying to make melody in my work, as persistent as I can do, because LIFE is our way to PROVE what is wrong and what is right. As long we are persistent in right path to always give the real positive impact,GOD NEVER CLOSE HIS EYES and someday people also will know where they are standing. Where are we standing now, just yourself can find out.

FIND OUT OUR PATH NOW!

HONESTLY I have never perceived so clearly If I didn't take this position.

At the end, it still remain question in my head, the question is "I don't know, why?"

My Holiday didn't count..

Since I used my holiday for applying free several conferences and do my final project, my life has been screwed up because not enough rest, then I felt terrible. But today Greenwich conference sent me an email that told me, I'm being accepted as one of short list candidates for this lovely Conference in London. Happy. Ya even I don't have big opportunities at least I'm part of it to develop me more. I love mom, who always teach me how to thank what we have and what we got. Thank's Jesus, thank's mom.

My final test so hard, oh my, I'd never thought it before I realized it's so hard. DAMN complicated. But I should give extra power to finish it faster than other people can do. COME ON! My friend finished it (for the same econometric model) in 8 months, I'll finish it just in 4 months! GOD HELP ME! GIMME STRENGTH!

Teach and being

Yeah today 20 students came to my class and hmm.. not so passionate about delivering since I felt tired today coz' I chat with Wina for 1 hour in phone last midnight and we have little intense discussion. Now I'm sitting in front my laptop, feel my stomach bit ache and have several things to do this evening. Tommorow EB will say the truth to all newbies about our LC condition and progress report for accountibility and transparency to all members. Yeah we don't want to hurt any people feelin' and make the motivation down but we will try the best for that! So let's see.. what next will be happened?

AI Director visit and strange day in Jakarta

For last two days I attended 1 meeting with AI director for Asia Pacific, Ryan. (Oh.. Director yang Aneh!) then I met my friend to pass a book for my beloved lecturer, Then Great SG meeting. Honestly I became great because there was free chinese round table dinner! HUAHUAHA... Mr. Amir seems very very concern about environmental issues, then I realize he's really cool! Charming guy, with low voice but totally ellegant! Then after we finished eat, MC gave souvenir to Ryan and set meeting to pick ryan up at 6 am. Then we went home and it's so tiring day! fiuh...
Then today I went to industrial ministry and jakarta stock exchange, totally I hadn't expected what I feel today. Industrial ministry is horrible then I felt sick about it. There's no proper data, bad nature of work, bad working culture, and so pathetics! DAMN HORRIBLE! I never want to come again to that horrible place. If I come I must be one of change agent to change all bad things there. PROMISE TO MYSELF!

Global warming and climate change

What we should do about it? When I heard about this problem, direct from Al Gore (But I saw on DVD..) oh ok, that is not important anyway. I really schock! Oh.. my God I just realize, we are just like fish on the kettle and boiled slowly but sure. We as a fish don't know what happened to us and we still enjoy live in the warm water even it's getting hotter and hotter for a long long time. Any people activities in the world impact to this global warming? What we should do, because this is GLOBAL PROBLEM, must be ended with GLOBAL SOLUTION and GLOBAL AWARENESS too. Let's start with our act now. By using electricity efficiently we contribute to reduce the threats, by using gas wisely we increasing hope for our next generation living, by not smoking we save one person and reduce global warming. FOR GOD SAKE, ACT NOW!

Fear is an illusion

I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot. Why? Because when you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.

If I'm going to jump into a pool of water, even though I can't swim, I'm thinking about being able to swim at least enough to survive. I'm not jumping in thinking to myself, "I think I can swim, but maybe I'll drown." If I'm jumping into any situation, I'm thinking I'm going to be successful. I'm not thinking about what happens if I fail.

But I can see how some people get frozen by that fear of failure. They get it from peers or from just thinking about the possibility of a negative result. They might be afraid of looking bad or being embarrassed. That's not good enough for me. I realized that if I was going to achieve anything in life, I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it. I don't believe you can achieve anything by being passive. I know fear is an obstacle for some people, but it's an illusion to me. Once I'm in there, I'm not thinking about anything except what I'm trying to accomplish.

Any fear is an illusion. You think something is standing in your way, but nothing is really there. What is there is an opportunity to do your best and gain some success. If it turns out my best isn't good enough, then at least I'll never be able to look back and say I was too afraid to try. Maybe I just didn't have it. Maybe I just wasn't good enough. There's nothing wrong with that and nothing to be afraid of either. Failure always made me try harder the next time. That's why my advice has always been to "think positive" and find fuel in failure.

Sometimes failure actually just gets you closer to where you want to be. If I’m trying to fix a car, every time I try something that doesn't work, I'm getting closer to finding the answer. The greatest inventions in the world had hundreds of failures before the answers were found. I think fear sometimes comes from a lack of focus or concentration, especially in sports. If I had stood at the free-throw line and thought about 10 million people watching me on the other side of the camera lens, I couldn't have made anything. So I mentally tried to put myself in a familiar place.

I thought about all those times I shot free throws in practice and went through the same motion, the same technique that I had used thousands of times. You forget about the outcome. You know you are doing the right things. So you relax and perform. After that you can't control anything anyway. It's out of your hands, so don't worry about it.

It's no different than making a presentation in the business world or doing a report for school. If you did all the things necessary, then it's out of your hands. Either the clients liked the presentation or they didn't. It's up to the client, the buyer or the teacher. I can accept failure. Everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying. That's why I wasn't afraid to try baseball. I can't say, "Well, I can't do it because I'm afraid I may not make the team." That's not good enough for me. It doesn't matter if you win as long as you give everything in your heart and work at it 110 percent.

Fear is an illusion.

Michael Jordan

ICDRS 2006

Opportunity that I won't miss it! I am trying to find out about China and India issues and I know this is not easy to reach. Maybe I'll get or maybe I won't get because not enough money for it, but I'm trying to strecth my capacity and my believe

"I CAN IF I HAVE WILLING".

China and India are countries with unique traditions and great civilization then I have passion about them!
New York I will try to reach you!! Wait for me!

Since one AIESEC member asked me about how to lead people and people who are led feel they aren't being dictated??? Such challenging question dude!! hahaa... but I'll answer it in my language!

Then we start from.. bagaimana sebuah kelompok terbentuk? Apakah kelompok ini dibentuk oleh keterpaksaan atau karena kesukarelaan? Hal yang lebih penting lagi untuk dipertanyakan, apakah peran pemimpin di dalam kelompok ini?? Apakah sebagai pemimpin otoritas (atas nama jabatan saja) atau berperan sebagai pemimpin yang muncul karena jiwa kepemimpinan di dalam diri orang yang bersangkutan?

That must be answer by your condition! Then perspektif kepemimpinan yang sesungguhnya bahwa kepemimpinan itu bukan mengenai masalah jabatan atau masalah kewenangan, karena kepemimpinan adalah pilihan individu. YOUR CHOICE, MY CHOICE! Bahkan individu tanpa jabatan atau otoritas sekalipun adalah pemimpin bila ia terus belajar mengembangkan karakter-karakter kepemimpinan di dalam dirinya!

Orang yang sedang membaca artikel ini dan merasa bahwa dirinya belum menjadi SEORANG PEMIMPIN yang sesungguhnya bila anda belum pernah atau tidak sedang menjadi ketua projek besar/menjadi pimpinan atau pengurus organisasi! IT'S BIG MISTAKE!!! HUGE MISTAKE!

Ketika sedang berbicara mengenai kepemimpinan yang memesona banyak orang, kita sedang berbicara tentang bagaimana kita memimpin orang. Memimpin bukanlah mengatur benda, tetapi memimpin manusia-manusia yang dinamis dan berpribadi unik. Benda adalah hal yang dapat kita atur dan kita situasikan, tetapi tidak bila kita memimpin dalam arti yang sesungguhnya!

Bila Kita sudah belajar mengenai arti kepemimpinan atas diri sendiri dengan sendirinya orang lain akan mengikuti arahan dan perintah kita, tanpa mereka menyadarinya!

"SIAPAPUN YANG INGIN MEMIMPIN ORANG LAIN, PERTAMA-TAMA HARUS MENGUASAI DIRINYA SENDIRI!"

Philip Massinger!

ITULAH ARTI YANG SESUNGGUHNYA DAN JAWABANNYA ADA DALAM HATI ANDA!!!

Bali, we will come!

Today is GREAT!!! All EBs gathered in Imed house and we ate traditional food from origin cities after we had ied holiday for 2 weeks. Arhgg.. that's beautiful! Then Me, Wina, Rista, Vita, and Siska had conversation in my car, we have a dream to have farewell party in Bali (At Imed House!)

We were dreaming, dreaming, and dreaming. It's so great when we can feel what will happened, after all this responsibilities over!! Arghh.. I can't imagine so sad and happy too. This journey was began and must be ended beautifully! It's so great feelin'!! I want to shout loudly! This is AMAZING EXPERIENCE!!

How beautiful Bali is, when we can get there! How clear the water as we can see our face in the mirror! How fresh the air as oxigen go in through our lungs! How salty the water sea when we can dive within! How excited we are when we are 50 meters from the ground and GO Bungy! How free we are when the wind blow hard in our face!!

HOW FREE????
AS FREE AS WE CAN GO!!!

When all become one!

Do you know that we, as human has big three elements in our life to reach our greatest goal??? They are knowledge, attitude, and skills. How we manage that to be great person who give impact to our society? We should build it from ground perspective. Start from what we were made!

HUMAN ingredients:
1. Thought
2. Soul
3. Heart
4. Body

What we can do with these?? We should have vision from our thoughts, inner from soul, passion from heart, and dicipline from our body. We use what we have to colaborate our knowledge, attitude, and skills. Build them from our self and we become powerful as you can't imagined before. Become one, become our Identity!

START TODAY!

Challenge for new day!

When I just heard Tomas resigned from AIESEC Indonesia, so sad. And anyway... today is great even many things shocked me. It's all about teaching assistant tough. It's not AIESEC and I just realize, it's hard to mantain people if we don't have same culture. It's totally sucks. And also there's friend asked me, why I didn't attend class for in a week. I just said "I resign", But it's hurt my heart!!! It remind me that I lost application fee. fufufuf...

I will start my routine tommorow, I prepare my schedule, it's so full. IT's challenge! Aidy, aidy!!a CHALLENGE!!! CHALLENGE!!!