set the target and let the way lead me there

It is tricky to play with numbers and target of the future, especially for our lives. Many say that it is important to state what we really want in this life by writing 'em down in the form of target and number. However, these target thingy might drag people and myself to confuse about the future days that even we do not know will happen or not. Then bit by bit we keep thinking and worrying about our future and loosing the control over the presence, the day that is precious and can be more beautiful with our presence mind.

Calculating age, earnings, achievements, number of kids, luxurious items for feeding satisfaction, our sake satisfactions, have become part of life. Rooted so deeply until this flows as a giant stream that hard to be avoided. The fact is simply showed, most of everybody does. Some refuse to flow with the stream and pick self out from the stream, forgetting about the future and enjoy what is coming. Nothing is wrong. In my genuine perspective, people can choose the path and attitude to live their life, but of course it will be more interesting if there is a distinctive reason behind their choices, the choices that they are convenient with.

Caring too much about the future or does not care at all. It does not matter. It is the main stream, upstream, or out of the stream. It does not matter. As long as one can really enjoy the process, the daily life, hours by hours, minutes by minutes. Today I reflect again, then I remind my self that I stand for what I believe, picture the future, set the target and I do not remember it, but I keep them in my heart, converge my actions, and I believe the way leads me there.

Omar: There is nothin like This...

There is nothing like today when I have my friends around, there is nothing like my far way friends who spent a crazy party yesterday with me, there is nothing like my lovely parents who support me behind my back but let me free and let me grow independently, there is nothing like my tons of job, which I really love to do, there is nothing like my sweet bed and warm blanket waitin for me,...

There is nothing like this.. there is no substitucion....

Say what...? Say enough my Aidy

2.23 am. TV with TMF channel still on...
2.24 am. IPOD still dangling in my ears and lazy fingers are still dancin' on the top of black keyboard, which might say "I feel under pressure all the time", why this happens to us , whyy??
2.25 am. washing machine is waiting for me to be cleared out... and my clothes are still stuck inside of it..
2.26 am. all clothes are hanged and waiting for getting dry
2.30 am. I think this is not gonna over soon... still many things to do.. take the IPOD off..
2.31 am. brushing my teeth and washing my face prepare to sleep
2.40 am. pull the blanket and turn off the tv and lights (save the energy babe!)
2.50 am. I say "Today is enough" and I am so grateful for having a beautiful day
geeee....

PS: promise myself before I am really entering dreamy world that this is too late for saying enough, it could be earlier AND IT SHOULD BE.

Rotterdam: from the Top of the World

being teen, mature, and old

Once my friend said today. Life is funny. Then I asked him, "why?"

He said three phases you may pass in this life. Being teen, mature, and old will teach you that we always will loose some part to have a full life (energy, money, and time). I am not talking this happens to everybody because for myself I do not accept it and I do not feel like being the majority who experience this funny things.

As teenager, one has the energy and the time to do things, but usually he or she has less money.
As the mature person, one has the energy and the money from the salary and earnings, but consequently he or she has less time.
As the old person, one has the money and the time to do things, but usually he or she has less energy because of tired muscles.

From my perspective this is the paradox of life and that's why it is not funny but it is beautiful.