random thoughts

Unbridled moment of time, I have lost a lot of chances and speed to move forward. Usually I restrain all sets of actions and think about each of its consequences and yet I haven't understood why I lose myself badly. I must to admit that what my friend, Nick, said about the world is differentiating what we want and what we can get is real, as real as world price is going down lately, believably unbelievable thing.

The sounds of Adam Smith are getting clearer in my head, as if he whisper me, there are invisible hands controlling things on earth including prices, supply, demand, and my brain capacity in one of it. Not exactly in the parallel line with price, supply, demand thingy but more in the realm of Almighty hands thingy. All these hands steer and maneuver incredibly beautiful and eloquent until the human effort are banished in the complexity of its stream and evaporated, gone.

The mirth of achievement is going away step by step until I can't see it but I still have abundant ammunitions to get the perfection someday. My family enchantment is gone; they are changing to be a pessimist because of my failure consecutive attacks. Never mind, I still have the energy to ignite the fire of passion and pull the ardent back. I will not live in a woe for forever, just an ancient people said, "the groan, moan, and grumble just pull you back from the success point in the front of your step"

kisah pendek2 JCO MTA

Udah 3 jam gw duduk di JCO MTA pada hari Sabtu yang super rame banget. Ditemani temarang2 lampu cafe JCO yang redup, gw duduk di kursi yang paling ok posisinya, di paling kiri deket tembok menghadap kasir, tepat ditengah mepet tembok ga terlalu dalem, ga terlalu luar pokoknya pas! sepas coffee lattenya yang lagi gw minum ga pake gula karena males ambil akibat lupa ambil pas bayar dan keburu duduk di kursi dengan alat2 elektronik buku bertebaran, yah tau lah takut laptop kesamber maling lagi!


Ini udah ketiga kalinya pengunjung di sebelah kursi gw ganti, dari mulai ibu2 ganjen yang ngudud mulu sampe bikin rambut gw bau bako, mpe terakhir ni pasangan yang cabul abis megang2 paha pasangannya mulu, diusap2 sambil megang jari2 pacar cewenya. Hi... geli. (antara geli pengen dan geli jijik!) Ga kuat gw ngeliatnya jadi deh gw tumpahkan aja di dalam kotak blog ini dari pada di kloset kamar mandi (lagi2 kejauhan kalo harus ke kamar mandi, dan lagian gw tau banget kalo toilet di Mall Taman Anggrek aka MTA ga ada airnya! Hii.. paling males!)


Diseberang gw ada juga cewe berambut panjang yang sendirian megang2 laptopnya sambil senyum2 sendiri. (jangan2 gw diliat orang lain seperti itu juga ya! Wah kacau juga ya!) Btw coffee latte gw tinggal sepertiga dan gw udah mulai muak dengan bau Donat khas JCO, tumpukan ragi ngembang bareng gula tipis dan mentega. Tuh JCO banget! juga warna coklatnya yang bikin mata gw lama2 jadi kuning kalo ngeliat orang. Sepertinya gw harus cari spot internet baru yang lebih menarik dan ga ada bau DONAT!!!!

City of love, courtesy, and leisure

The biggest and the massive celebration of Ied, one of sacred and unique tradition of Islam has reached its way. Everybody whose attached to this event and all people who urgently need holiday get in a rush, packed, stored all the present for family and beloved friends, and stand in the long line for bus ticket, with the only vision, to reach home, to hug the relative, to relax, eventually to celebrate a big day. Fortunately I have clustered as one of people who pulled by the stream and the intension to feel a catharsis can not be hold anymore. Grabbed my books and wait in the long line of traffic to come back home.
Dangling in the uncomfortable situation at the middle of minivan bus, with the back of the chair oscillating constantly, I ignore the fact it was disturbing the passenger on my back. It can't be helped at all and the constant movement make me feel asleep and finally the unconsciousness peeped and I lost my world.
Just right before arrived at the terminal, I set all clear to my dad so he could pick me up and yes finally I arrived in Bandung, my lovely home town with cool humid air, soft wind flow and touch the skin gently, with usual narrow street and all trees in the pavement along the street, with the slower movement of people was walking, and with many punk style and dandy style street seller were waiting customers to approach them. Yes this is the city of love, courtesy, and leisure.
Can't wait to spend the entire holiday in this beautiful environment.

Furry friend of mine

29 November is a good day remember, sweet, trove, and full of enchantment. following my present on this day, my best friend was born in exactly the same day. The major difference is she has many freckles and I don't, but we have pretty similar attitude, behavior, hobbies, and identity in general such as...
She is a female, me too
She is pretty, me too
She is Sagittarius, me too
She has uncontrolled behavior when there's good food on the table, me too
She is getting happy if there's any family members come back home, me too
She is lazy freak on the bed, me too
She barks and bites when gets angry, me too (careful..)
She spoiled sometimes, me too
She is pup in the toilet, me too
She likes pickles, fruits, and other vegetables, me too
She gets sick sometimes, me too
She is scratch herself when itchy, me too
She is lonely sometimes, me too
She is going to salon for manicure pedicure, me too
She jealous with other friends, me too
She loves watching movie, me too
She loves math, me too?
She is furry, me too!!$%^&*

I am so happy to have her besides me all the time, slept in the corner of under my bed. Oh Bonnie my furry friend.

Discovery from the Realm of Life

Today is just perfect to share the treasure of my life. It has been a long time since I sat and wrote something down in this small box to share thought with this world. Moving on eloquently without any halt even for a second, the world is still as astound as it is 2000, 3000, 4000 years, you name it. For me, the last three months has become a giant pit stop from all activities under name "change the world", "do something different", "make a change", "all good words to do". Even tough I planned to do things like that, for sure damn not easy.
The realm of my life was shaken and I feel challenged but in the other hand I feel jabbered by too many uncertain things, such as series of interviews from some companies, from which I had never even thought about before, Brazil, China, India, Germany. Gee... life it's so vibrant these days. More than that, 1000 tests in front of me, everyday the test keep test me and I test my patient to just sit and do it. Hrrgghhh... I don't know when it will end. One day for sure. I hope that day, I still have patient resource for the rest of my life.
Besides all these things, I discover life better and better, explore relationship with family. All of them are getting better. The more I spend my time with them virtually and physically, I can feel how my family love me, my dog love me, and how I love 'em. It is just splendid. They always be there in my misery, in my rage, and in my zest.
I wish life doesn't fly too fast to make them gone and disappeared from my sight or crawl too slow until I just get bored by even glancing on them. Today is just perfect, the rhythm, the nuance, the weather, and the love from people I live with. More over, I know what I am heading for, I know what I want, I am waiting for it, I feel free, but restrained and firmed by the fact that I am being loved and I loved the people beside me, the place, the surrounding, and the world. It is still super ok because we are moving together hand by hand with.

The Solitary depleted my productivity of life

The life cascade has been derived from the way mind flowing and how the surroundings react. That is what I felt lately. I keenly welcome the new things to come and stirred up by any offers, in the other hand the pressure to accomplish several tests thrust my excitement away. Somehow I thought it is awry for being in the unprecedented realm.

Maybe at the end, I just deliberate too much with myself..

When the police stop you...

Just right in the gallop of Jakarta traffic, try to find the shortest way to WTC Building. I took the U-turn in the cross road fountain and the police stopped me abruptly, then I halt my car, ask the reason why he stopped me and when I wanted to explain, the other police (one man with military uniform) revealed me by saying that my father is his colleague, which the truth is not. What the hell things happen everyday and sometime what the heaven things happen. Nonetheless I’m not sure which one is happened today.

Who am I? Butterfly or Caterpillar?

Once upon a time, there is a "caterpillar's mom alias butterfly" gave a birth of thousand baby caterpillar eggs in one of medium sunkist tree. Unfortunately mom flew away after gave birth because she was overwhelmed with the wings that she has.

After a while, the thousand of baby caterpillar eggs broke and they were spreading as caterpillar. From thousand of baby caterpillars, there is one caterpillar, her name is Molly 1000. She has 999 brothers and sisters. They grew together in a medium sunkist tree.

Since she was born, Molly 1 until Molly 999 always say that she is very tiny and small, and because all 999 siblings said so, she thinks that way. She always walk down very slow and eat dead leaves. She feel underachieve rather than all 999 siblings who always find better leave to eat.

One day she decided to leave the sunkist tree and live in other tree to avoid all her siblings because she feel ashame and can not compete with all her siblings. She was staying there for months alone, did her metamorphosis process there and still there for months there.

One day, when she was eating a leaf from the tree where she was staying, she met a lady bug with black spot in her red wings who always visit the tree in the morning. The lady bug feel confuse with Molly 1000 and they she asked, "I just confuse, do you stay here everyday?" Molly 1000 said, "Yes I'm staying here almost 5 months, I can't stand live with all my brothers and sisters, they said that I'm slow catterpillar and I feel so heavy with my own body and I realize that I'm really slow so I'm staying here far a way from them"

The lady bug, feel so shock and asked again, "Hmm... Molly 1000, do you know that since I met you three months ago in this tree you are not caterpillar? , As far as I remember I met you as butterfly, maybe you think you are caterpillar, that's why you should carried your wings as burden" You are beautiful Molly 1000 and you are here to make a world even more wonderful why you must think that way? USE YOUR WINGS and BE THE BEAUTY of the WORLD, don't stay here and think all things bad.

Catastrophe in the Middle East: Movement of minority voices

Nuclear weapon and development has become a fancy excuse for attacking other country. The climate in the political room has increased since US has supported Israel to be an independent country which is acknowledged by the world. Lately it raises the voice to start the movement to attack Iran? Will it happen?
Not eligible power has become stronger and stronger, then it starts claim and judge the official country for the nuclear development as a reason. What is the real thing going on? Or it is just a real hoax?